Then, when I came to Kol Rinah, I expressed my wish to be Bat Mitzvah yet again. A qualified tutor agreed to help me. Unfortunately, I was a disappointment, and could not continue with him because of my own flakiness. I had no excuse to stop training with him, other than drama in my life. With the main Rabbi, I awoke to the idea yet again of being, or rather having, a Bat Mitzvah. He told me, "This time, we are going to do this," and he assured me that I would complete my Bat mitzvah. I wanted to do Genesis, but because in six months, it would be Exodus, he wanted me to do Exodus for my Bat Mitzvah.

So, COVID-19 hit, and I was not able to do Exodus. Hence, I am taking this "sign" to go back to my original plan of Genesis in a little less than a year. I have a works in progress of a painting of the pomegranate with lavender branches and an olive-green leaf. I also have some other abstract Jewish art. Yet, at the age of forty, I finally feel accepted in the synagogue as a grown woman and I am therefore ready for my Bat Mitzvah. Of course, I feel differently as a woman than a twelve-year-old. Unfortunately, I was a very immature twelve-year-old, when I could've just completed the bat mitzvah then. Now, I have a greater consciousness and will appreciate the Bat Mitzvah dearly.